So I've been working diligently on Riley's first scrapbook and I'm super proud of it. I only have one more page (technically two because I create two page layouts) left to do. I was trying to decide which picture to put on the back page considering it's only one page instead of two, and when I was looking through my file of pictures I came across a letter I wrote to him the night I first felt him moving inside my belly. I thought since I can't really think of much to write on here, I would share that with all of you, so here it is...
Riley Douglas:
From the first moment I saw the little flicker of your heartbeat on the screen, I knew you were well on your way to becoming the absolute essence of my life. Tonight I felt your first swift kick to the inside of my abdomen. It just a moment the abstract thoughts of having a life in my growing belly turned into the reality that soon I will have a tiny baby in my arms. A tiny baby that is half me and half the most amazing man I know. I am frantically waiting to see your handsome face. I cannot imagine loving you anymore than I already do, but I know that the touch of your soft skin against my lips and the sound of your tiny little voice will only add to the growing ocean of my love for you. My dear son, my deepest hope for your life is that of love. Love that comes into your life through every crack and crevice and corner. Love that never ceases and refuses to leave you even when you try to escape it. Love that does not give up on you, does not betray you, and does not abandon you. I wish for you the strength and courage to love after you've been disappointed. The courage to continue to be the wonderful man you were created to be even when you feel as though the world has left you in the dust. I wish for you empathy, compassion, and kindness towards others. I already know God has given you a big heart, I wish for you the motivation to use it. I wish for you a bright and stable mind. The type of intelligence that will make it effortless for you to succeed in whatever you set out to do. I wish for you an ease to forgive those who hurt you, whether it be purposefully or unintentionally. I wish for you safety, that you would allow angels to follow your every move and keep you out of harm's way. I wish for you a sweet, beautiful wife. That you would find in a woman everything you've wished for and that you would know it the moment you see her. People will hurt you and disappoint you. At times you will fail. There will be times you will be sad and tired and want nothing more than to simply give up. For those times I wish for you the strength and endurance to keep going - to try again. You can do anything and be anything you wish to be. You create your own life, don’t let others dictate it for you. Be strong. Be stable. Be kind.
I wish for you nothing but absolute happiness.
I love you.
Again, I know I'm' cheesy, but I'll appreciate reading it when I'm old and grey. Hopefully there might be a short stage in his life when he appreciates it too =o)
I will have new pictures soon. I have a ton on my camera but just haven't had time to take them off. I started work (full time) on Monday so it's really been pretty crazy around here. Hopefully as soon as I get into a pretty good routine, I'll have more time to myself. (Not likely though)
P.S. I forgot to mention - Riley is pooping like a champ! No problems there anymore and he usually sleeps about 5 hours at time during the night which means we only have to wake up one time while we're sleeping! Yipee!
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