19 weeks

my hope is that not enough people read this to be annoyed by the fact that i'm always so negative. i've had a rough week. i found out towards the end of last week that my friend's 6-year-old has 5th disease. It's a viral infection that is only contagious during the week between contraction and symptoms. unfortunately i spent an evening at his house in close contact with him. so i went over the weekend to get a blood test only to find out that i won't get the results until friday. if i have it, it causes an infection in my blood that will have a huge impact on Riley's development. i haven't read up on it too much just because i don't want to stress until i find out what's going on.

so i stayed home from work yesterday because i don't want to bring it into vista, and around 9:30 in the morning i was began vomiting up blood. i have to say it was definitely the scariest thing i've ever experienced. i know it sounds gross and probably very irrational, but i was sure it was the baby's blood i was throwing up. After two hours of freaking out in the ER waiting room, and three hours in a room waiting for the doctor, they finally told me that my esophagus is just torn. I guess from the three weeks of hyperemesis and constant vomiting, it weakened my esophagus and i probably just ate something that tore through it. thank god that's all it was.

but on a happier note, i finally got some belly jeans for myself. doug and i went to motherhood in the mall over the weekend and i tried on every pair of jeans in the store and hated each one. we ended up in york at the only old navy in the area that carries an extensive amount of maternity clothes. i found some cute jeans that look so much more normal than the ones at motherhood. they were also only $20 a pair... i was ecstatic when we got to the register and she said $39.99 when i was expecting to spend atleast $60. so exciting =o) it is weird to slide jeans on like they're sweats though... not sure how long it will take me to get used to that.

one more week until 20 weeks! i'm begging doug to make Riley on easter basket, but i don't know if that will happen or not.


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